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March 14, 2007 (11 pm)

Dear Lipizzan Lovers, and especially those of you who know Smokey or have one or more of his children/grandchildren/great grandchildren.

And. . . those of you who are new to Lipizzans and don’t know him, Smokey (Maestoso II Sabrina) was born on Washington's birthday in 1976 at Tempel Farms; has been with me for 24 years; has been an ambassador for the Lipizzan breed beginning 1983; has been a patriarch sire of more than 90 Lipizzan and half-Lipizzan children; successfully competed in United States Dressage Federation dressage at every level (except Grand Prix), placing at all levels for USDF, and finally to Intermediare (second highest level of competition), and was second, reserve chamption, in the U.S., all breeds of horses competing, at Intermediare Freestyle (ridden by Jennifer Roth, whom Smokey inspired to breed and ride Lipizzans). After that, Smokey suffered a life threatening injury (car accident) that ended his competitive show career. He was not expected to live, and if he did, not expected to be sound or breed. Yet, he did recover. Smokey's picture album is on www.Lipizzan.com

TEN DAYS AGO Smokey was giving rides to my 3 and 5 year old granddaughters (see pix below). We pulled his shoes off 5 days ago (which he has worn most of his life) and, what a guy . . . he did three airs above the ground in the arena.

However, RIGHT NOW Smokey is in intensive care, in a sling/hoist, in a vet hospital in Salinas (Steinbeck), recovering from a devastating event.

It is NOT TIME for Smokey to leave the planet. As many of you know, he has been an inspiration of faith and hope for many, people during his lifetime (especially me with my crippling back condition - I always joke that he is more sound than me), AND Smokey has been a true ambassador for the Lipizzan breed since 1983.

Also, Smokey still needs to teach my two granddaughters and my 5 month old grandson how to ride before he leaves us.

I don't know how many more days I can keep him in the hospital because the bill is already $8000 and I'm completely tapped out. His Intensive Care Unit stall with the sling, round the clock care, and IV's costs $1500 a day.

I'm willing to sell some of his offspring really for very discounted prices to the right owners to raise money to save Smokey's life.

My email: Lipizzan@hollinet.com

Thank you.

Laura Wiener-Smolka

Below: Smokey in the hospital today, with hoist straps loosened and fast mask support off, eating treats (and his exhausted, bedraggled mother, caretaker, owner, me, Laura).

Barely 3-yr old McKenna and 5-yr old Jessica with Smokey.

If you are interested and are not tired of reading, here are some of the details of Smokey’s trauma.

Late Monday night, he woke us up because we could hear him thrashing in his stall. After calling his vet, we treated him for colic with Banamine. Later with Bute. We rolled him over every few hours. Then we treated him again with a small amount of Banamine, but he didn't get better. When the vet came in the early morning, she said something was going on neurologically with his hind legs. She called in two veterinary specialists. He continued to decline. His tail went flaccid and his tongue was hanging out of his mouth. He started to go into shock. The vets put him on an IV and gave him lots of different types of drugs and drained his bladder.

Finally, the horse ambulance got here (there was a two-hour tie up on the freeway because of a car accident).

We had to cut away part of his stall so they could put him on a "sled" and drag him out of the stall (tranquilized) and into the ambulance.

When he got to the hospital, it took 12 people to put him in a sling and hoist him up. They all were so impressed with Smokey and said that he was very cooperative and never struck out or protested even though he didn't like it; that it was like he knew they were trying to help him; and that he was an amazing good horse/stallion and that horses with his temperament and intelligence should be the only breeding stallions.

Smokey could not stand and he could not swallow, and he was bloated and full of gas -- no gut sounds. He was pretty beaten up from struggling in his stall, all that happened to him, and being drug around on the sled to be transported into the ambulance and then be outfitted and hoisted up at the hospital.

All together, he was down for about 14 or more hours (not good). The vet said that if a horse has been down for more than 12 hours, they rarely recover.

I was beside myself with grief. he has been "my son" for the past 24 years of his 31 year life.

I knew he was still in there in his mind, but he was so weak and tired. I tried to pet him, but most of his body was covered with the sling straps and a face mask holding his head up. I kissed him and breathed into his nostrils. I told him he was beautiful and he could beat this and that he is quite a guy. I asked him if he wanted to go home (twice), and then he nodded his head yes three times.

Jennifer Roth (Smokey's last professional rider), and his devoted fan Betsy Brown also came to visit him later last night, and Smokey again nodded his head when they asked him if he wanted to go home.

The doctors ruled out EPM, West Nile, and a couple of other things. All that was left that could be causing the neurological problems: botulism and equine herpes virus. Last night I told them to go ahead and start treating him for both afflictions ($3700+), without waiting for a test to come back. All of his regular blood tests were normal.

This morning he had made no improvement. The vet said that horses who are unable to stand for more than 24 hours, no matter what their age, rarely survive.

I spent the most of the day at work trying to meet a deadline, crying and feeling sick -- and praying harder than ever for the most Ultimate Miracle.

This afternoon went to see Smokey and arrived at about 4 pm and, I could not believe it, he had rallied. I was hugging him with joy and thanking God and all of his fans/friends who are praying for him and sending him good energy.

The straps were slackened on Smokey's hoist and he had weight on all four feet and several times took a few steps with the front and hind feet -- that the sling/hoist apparatus allows. He was in pretty good spirits, answering back when other horses call out, and eating and swallowing well. My husband and just hugged Smokey and each other in joy and hope. It was truly miraculous.

All of Smokey's vital signs are excellent; his digestive system is working; and he's not bloated anymore.

He rapidly enjoyed his pureed carrots that I brought for him and some peppermints, a few Dorrito chips, and a pre-chewed apple (he has no back teeth). Years ago, Smokey ate PayDay candybars at horseshows (when he had all of his teeth).

When I was leaving Smokey late this afternoon, I asked him if he wanted to go home. Again, he shook his head yes, three times. When I walked away, he hollered out. I think at age 31 and knowing me (and other humans) for 24 years, he knows what is being said to him.

The vets are truly excited and amazed, yet cautioned me to have "guarded optimism." They said they have never seen a horse who was in such a grave, almost hopeless condition rebound to this extent -- and so rapidly.

Two of Smokey's friends, Jennifer Roth and Betsy Brown, are going to visit him tomorrow morning (Thursday) and bring pureed carrots and peppermints to him to keep his spirits up and make him feel truly valued and needed on the planet-- which is totally essential to getting well, whether horse or human.

I have the greatest Faith that Smokey will have a miraculous, complete recovery. I know, without a doubt, that God can and does send His Spirit to offer miracles on earth, especially when two or more people pray together.

I am asking for your prayers -- lots of them -- for Smokey -- and for me to find a source of funds to keep him in the hospital until he is well enough to come home-- and that you will receive faith, hope, and inspiration in life as you watch the Miracle unfold as Smokey overcomes all odds.

Truly yours,

Laura

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March 17, 2007

To all of you who have sent such touching and inspiration messages: We will treasure them forever. I'm going to print them all and put them in a scrapbook that I will look at whenever I feel saddened by and disappointed in the behaviors and attitudes of some of our human race.

I could not go see Smokey today (Saturday) because I woke up with incredible eye pain and eventually had to go to the hospital. Apparently I got something in my left eye (probably "grit" from my little 4-mo old Jack Russell puppy, Hanna, who loves to cuddle me and sleep on my pillow. She sleeps over my neck, my face, and puts her paws on my face. She just can't get close enough to me. (I will insert a pix below.) Anyway, I ended up with a cornea scratch, which is extremely painful (feels like a bucket of ground glass in my eye). I have to put ointment in it and keep it closed and quiet until tomorrow.

However, the vet from the hospital called this afternoon and said that Smokey went out for a hand walk, and was a gentleman, walked a little stiff on his hind legs, but with no problem.

The major thing I have been worried about the last 24 hours is what happens if Smokey lays down at night and cannot get up. They will put him back in the sling and not let him go home, and probably recommend euthanasia again. However, this afternoon, the doctor said that Smokey finally laid down in his stall today. He had difficulty getting his hind legs under him to get up; only struggled a little; that it wasn't "pretty", but he got up. The doc said Smokey was so proud of himself and he hollered out to announce what he had done. All the vets and techs cheered for him.

Today, he is completely off the steroids, DMSO, everything, except a little Banamine. Tomorrow he goes off the Banamine, and he is expected to go home on Monday.

My husband, Don Smolka, has been extremely busy, working night and day to build a structure over his stall to support two hoists. I just purchased two 1320 pound electric hoists on EBay that we will use on his front and rear to assist him in getting up if he has a problem. We're working out the details of the best slings to use. With two hoists (remote controls) we can adjust the front and back as needed.

I cannot thank you all enough for your words of encouragement, your prayers, and those of you who offered to send a donation to help with Smokey's medical expenses. Without your help, we could not have kept him in the hospital this long and afforded to pay for the Botulism and Equine Herpes treatments that we started before all the tests came back.

The vets determined that Smokey does not have either, because he has rallied so quickly; therefore, we did not continue with the Equine Herpes treatment course ($3300 total). EPM and West Nile were already ruled out, as well as fractures to the spine. They said we may never know what caused the progressive neurological paralysis and the resulting colic and heart arrhythmia.

All of Smokey's blood work and vital signs are good and he is in good spirits. I'm sure he has some arthritis in his hocks at his age and with all the high level dressage he did in the 1980's. I think I will ask the vets to give him some hock injections tomorrow to help him along -- and maybe neck injections if he injured his neck in the stall when he could not get up. If they do his hock and neck injections, it could cost another $1000. (California is expensive.)

I'm feeling confident about getting more supportive treatments for him to give him the best chance for a good life, because now I know I will be able to pay for the treatments, thanks to donations. So, on Monday, I will even be using our grocery money for the rest of the month to bail Smokey out.

All of you are just incredible, and, again, I cannot truly express how much gratefulness I feel. Both of us, and everyone at work I have told about your responses, are just feeling uplifted. So, not only is Smokey an inspiration to many people, so you, Smokey's "fans" and the people who love Lipizzans and the relationship they are able to give to humans, as well as non-horse people.

We all have to stick together.

Don reminded me that some of you asked if we have PayPal. We do. It's Lipizzan@hollinet.com

I was not asking for or expecting monetary donations, but, for people who are able to do it and want to do it, I realized that I cannot let my pride get in the way of Smokey's recovery. I am going to send each donor something from my cabinet of Lipizzan things I have collected over the last 27 years as a token of my extreme appreciation -- and, if a "financial ship" comes into our harbor, a refund. Please know that I value the prayers, white light, and good wishes from everyone as much as money.

I haven't had time to update my website or send info regarding our 4 sale horses. Also, please forgive me, because I have not yet been able to answer each of your emails personally because of job demands, running back and forth to the hospital, etc., etc., and now, today, my eye injury. I'm holding a patch over my left eye and typing with one hand, while my right eye is watering in sympathetic pain to my left eye. I am feeling much better (except for the eye injury), and especially spiritually. I slept 12 hours last night and remembered to eat today. Didn't feel sick to my stomach today. So, hopefully, tomorrow, I will be able to answer each one of your personally. God bless you. You all have made this so much more bearable and reaffirmed my hope and faith.

Laura

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March 19, 2007

Smokey was supposed to go home this afternoon (Monday, March 19), but he had a set back, hopefully not serious. After being off all his drugs for 24 hours, he was discovered to have laminitis in his left front foot and is very lame and sore at the walk. His x-rays show no coffin bone rotations, which is very good news.

We all agreed that he should stay there until we are sure he can safely unload from the trailer (step up/down) without falling. His hind legs are still a little weak, so he has to come out of the trailer front first. Therefore, he needs two sound front feet.

Some Lipizzan people have sent donations, so I was able to keep him there at least another day and not move him to a regular stall (which is cheaper but could upset him and get him pacing or prancing), and get x-rays for his foot and neck, and even neck injections for two arthritic spurs.

I also bought a better hoist system for his stall and a monitoring device so we can see and hear him in the stall at night.

Some people in Las Vegas who own two of Smokey's offspring sent us a card with both their pictures that said, "Get well, Dad, Love Reesa and Firenza." It was so cute. They also sent $200 with the card. We have received almost 100 emails from people all over the country praying for Smokey and some sending donations.

]This one poor older lady somewhere in the southern states (can't remember right now) emailed and said she has Smokey's half sister who is almost his age. The lady saved her from horse slaughter and keeps her in her pasture. She said she is in a wheelchair with oxygen, but she goes out everyday and she and Bellamira sit in the pasture and she reads to the horse, and Bella keeps her company and they soak up the sunshine together. She said she was praying for funds to come to her so she could send me money. Oh my God, she lives on $775 a month social security and she said she first buys food for Bella. I started crying. When all this is over, I'm going to start sending her $25 a month.

Thanks for caring about Smokey so much.

Laura

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Today is March 20th.
After one whole week, Smokey is home ! What an incredible afternoon and what an incredible homecoming. I cannot tell you how happy Smokey is. When he got out of the trailer (a little clumsily, but safely), he danced with joy and sang out to his mares as he tried to piaffe down the fence line. I say "sang," because it wasn't like stallion hollering. He was literally singing joy to all of the mares and his home.

Don was leading him carefully out of the trailer, but Smokey started prancing and doing piaffe, so I had to say to Smokey in a soft voice, down, down, easy now, to bring him back to the walk, because he is not supposed to do that until his left front laminitis goes away. As I am writing, an hour later, I can hear him right now -- he just called out to his mares in. Doesn't exactly sound like the same singing right now -- more like a stallion call. ha ha -- I said to myself, what a guy.

Smokey must stay in his 16' x 16' stall for a week to rest his foot, but he is only 24' from most of the mares and has full view of them with the tops open on both of his stall doors. Normally, he can come and go into his back yard and front yard and have nose to nose contact with many of the mares. However, that is not the case right now, but he is still happy, happy.

Thanks to the donations we received for Smokey, we were able to buy a camera and monitor for him so we can listen to him and see him all night on a monitor just in he has trouble getting up – and we can get to him to help before he struggles himself into a similar state as he was last week.

After Smokey was all settled in, we came in the house to relax for a few minutes. Don and I sat down to the kitchen table with our farrier (who trailered Smokey this afternoon in her huge 4-horse, so he could exit front first) to have a glass of wine and give a toast and a prayer of thanks. We took one sip of the wine and Don saw on the monitor that Smokey was already down in his new, very deep shavings. We all bolted out of the house and ran to his stall in complete panic, ready for anything. Smokey was already up with shavings all over his back and tail. We were so relieved and clapped for him, and I personally said a silent prayer of thanks.

More donations came in today, so we will be able to get hock injections for his old-age arthritis to make him more comfortable and able to do what he was put on the planet to do.

Smokey is comfortable right now, happy, and so joyous to be home. I really believe that even Smokey knows it is a miracle that he is home and gets to be with his mares and back in his stall. The vet says that in a couple of weeks he can continue giving my 3 and 5 year old granddaughters riding lessons (all we do is walk and two or three steps of trot).

He loves delighting children and being the center of their attention. He loves little pats from tiny children. Always has. Ten and more years ago, he used to play St. Nicolas' mount at Christmas pageants in Carmel Valley (carrying around some 75 year old man dressed up as St. Nicholas in a shopping center) and he would have 20 - 40 children swarming around his legs and patting him and kissing him and just being in awe of Santa Claus' horse.

I cannot thank all of you enough for your prayers and your donations to help us do everything for Smokey. We invite all of you to visit him, and to bring your little children or grandchildren to sit on his back and be led around so they can experience this great white stallion and his kind soul and love for children. Smokey has taken good care of many children in his life, even when he was fit like Arnold Schw. (can't spell it), competing in the FEI show arena, and breeding every other day -- always a trustworthy, noble gentleman.

When the trailer pulled up to take Smokey home this afternoon, he knew he was going home. His primary vet, Dr. Nora Grenager was showing us his eye lacerations and explaining that we have to keep putting medicine in his eyes and how to soak his left front foot in ice for a few more days. When she finished, Smokey bowed his head deeply and very, very gently came forward and touched her entire chest and stomach with the entire front of is head and breathed softly a few times toward her belly button, as if to snuggle her and give her the most gentle resemblance of a horse hug to a human. not sure at first, I could not believe that she just gently embraced him with a smile and relaxed.

I could not believe it. I told her that Smokey would never, ever touch someone with his head or mouth because he has impeccable stallion manners, and that he did it so very gently and softly so as not to alarm her (or get scolded by me). It was so endearing and one of those moments in life that cannot be captured on camera and will remain a vivid memory forever.

 Smokey so soulfully thanking her for helping him, for being a caring, loving doctor, and he was also saying so long. I had tears in my eyes and some goose pimples. She almost did, too. She was overwhelmed and speechless. A male veterinarian standing nearby had a hint of tears in his eyes, too. It was so moving. What an incredible spirit Smokey is. He has always empowered people in the very best way.

Then, I said, Smokey you are such a good boy; he very gently nudged me twice, as if to say, okay, let's go. I will miss Nora, don't want to cry. I want to go home now. No more conversation, let's just go.

As we were leaving, the male vet (whose name I do not know), said that no matter how well one trains a breeding stallion, it is very rare to know one with Smokey's gentleness, cooperativeness, and temperament, and one that you can so totally trust. Obviously, this person has been around a lot of stallions, but not Lipizzan stallions who are handled with care, consistency, and love -- because, most Lipizzan stallions, given the same love and training, are like Smokey. It's just that Smokey is in the top 2%. I may have trained him well in his ground manners and developing some level of consciousness close to that of a 7-year old human, but I could never have done that if it were not for his breed and his very special spirituality and sensitiveness. He taught me first, and I taught him.

I left with a three-page document about Smokey's experience and recommendations for his treatment: stall rest, bute, vitamin E, ice for his left front foot, systemic joint supplements such as Legend and Adequan for limb and neck arthritis; ophthalmic ointment.

In the 3-page report Dr. Nora says:

"Smokey remains weak in the hind end, more so on his right than left hind. It is possible that he will have difficulty rising in the future. Obviously we cannot prevent Smokey from laying down. If lays down and merely has difficulty rising, it may be possible to assist him to stand at your ranch. (We have hoists and a homemade sling now to help him + the monitor.) However, if he is in a similar condition as he was on March 13, or if this happens more frequently, it will be important to consider Smokey's quality of life. Smokey is clearly an amazing horse with a strong spirit who has made an incredible recovery. While no horse owner, particularly one as dedicated and loving as you, wants to think about it, the hardest part of owning a horse is making a life and death decision. While I certainly hope this is not a decision you have to make any time in the near future, I urge you to consider how you will deal with that situation when the time arises. Smokey has been a wonderful and admirable patient."

Her written take home orders were a bit unusual, I thought, -- about how I will deal with that situation when the time arises.

I think that Dr. Nora may be worried about me (bless her heart) because she saw that when Smokey was still in his stall, waiting for the ambulance, suffering, and coming in and out of an ataxic state, that I am so connected to him spiritually that I simply would not let him go; that I was able to urge him on to fight because he is loved so much. It was like my child laying there. It is obvious that when he does go, a huge part of me will go, too. (My husband worries about that a lot.)

But, that is really okay. It's a natural process of life. That is what happens when you lose someone you truly, truly love and are connected with. After 31 years, I have never gotten over the loss of my mother and I lost of part of me when she died -- it cannot be made up. It's just part of earthly life. After a life time of losing those whom you love the most, and you are very old (Smokey is about 90 years in human life -- but sort of a Jack LaLane kinda guy), that is what helps you to be able to leave peacefully -- to be reunited with the spirits of the most important beings who have been part of your life.

I do know what Nora is talking about. I know that one day I and many others who love Smokey have to face putting him down, but it will be a day when he has finished is work here on the planet -- giving people inspiration, faith, hope, confidence, and teaching my grandchildren to love horses and to ride with joy & sensitivity . . . in spite of this artificial, electronic, violent game playing world that so many children participate in . . and a day when he can go peacefully here at home and not in pain.

I remember when my grandmother died at 96 just a few years ago. I cried a lot, and I miss her very much, but her death was not tragic. She lived a hard life in the beginning, but a good life, was very much loved and valued, did all the things she wanted to do, and died peacefully at home with her family around her.

When it is Smokey's time, that is how he will go. I just know that he has at least four more years, maybe longer . . . even nine years . . depending upon how well I can ascertain his needs and take care of them.

Laura

P.S. I know I am writing way too much -- but, I want to paste in just a couple of excerpts below from the many, many message we have received. because I believe that you would be personally inspired by them - - - as we are, by the heartfelt comments, full of Grace, in all of the hundreds of messages we have received:

Words cannot express what I felt hearing about Smokey. You and I go so far back together that I always feel a connection to you and Smokey.

I don't know which one of you has been the biggest miracle through the years. Thank you, laura, for all you've done to bring this magnificent horse into our lives. Over and over your persistence and spirit have given those of us who know you belief that if you care enough about doing something, it can be done.

Dear Laura, I went to visit Smokey at the clinic and had "steeled" myself for what I might see. The last time I saw Smokey he was teaching my 8-year old daughter in your ring. Arching his neck and moving to extended trot at McKenzie's "canter" aids. Today, when I rounded the corner and peeked into the stall, he glanced at me and continued looking out the window. No sling, no IV, just a regal old man waiting to go home. I didn't expect anything from him, I see him in his son everyday, but Smokey doesn't know me. It was just lovely to see him alive. Cheeks are lean, his back a little lower, but still, that beautiful noble face and expression. The vets are amazed, but isn't everyone that has ever worked with him? My love is with you both. I really hope he makes it home. I also can only support him with prayers.

 Just a quick note to let you know you and Smokey are in our prayers! Please let Smokey know we love him! (You too!)

Your vets obviously have never met Lipizzans before. When A_______ (Smokey’s daughter) was hospitalized for laminitis at Virginia Tech's vet teaching hospital last year, we were told for almost two month that she had very little chance and that they'd recommend putting her down. We didn't believe them. A one point, she spent almost two WEEKS down 20 - 22 hours a day; the vets told us she probably wouldn't get up and gave us an even smaller chance of surviving. She got back up on her feet and never looked back. We brought her home about a month after that. She tolerated the sling for work on her feet, bandage changes, hoof resections, and never balked or struggled in the sling. She just learned to lean on it and never had to be sedated. Smokey will pull through, you and I both know he will. It doesn't matter what the vets think although it sounds like they're learning to change their minds! I'm glad they're impressed. Our vets were too.

First let me say that I met Smokey at the Lipizzaner festival in Placerville (3 yrs ago), and he made a huge impression on me. I pray for his recovery and journey home to you.

You are doing the right thing to listen to Smokey. He speaks volumes and he is very lucky that you listen. He is in my prayers and all my friends have him in theirs too. God listens. Hopefully he will be back with you and his ladies and kids soonly.

I am thinking positive thoughts and pray for Smokey to be healthy once again... he is one incredible horse....

I'm a Lipizzan owner, too, and am really praying and hoping the best for Smokey. What an inspiration he is -- and reading your e-mails, understanding more and more how wonderful Lipizzans are --

I have been thinking about Smokey everyday, and reading your recent e-mail on his status, am so happy he is improving.

I am so very sorry to hear about Smokey. I don't even know him but feel like I do after reading so much about him. I will keep him (and you) in my prayers. Please, please keep us all updated on his condition. All Lipizzans are special, but he is extra special because he's been such a wonderful ambassador for the breed.

You don't know me, but I am Dejianna's "Grandmother" (one of Smokey's daughters) . I just want to let you know that even more prayers are being said for all concerned. I am still hoping to get a chance to take Lauren and her sister Alyssa up your way to see this magnificent stallion, and to see his wonderful personality first hand. God bless you Laura, and all of Smokey's friends, prayers for you too in this difficult time.

To be financially crippled to save a loved one is just terrifying to me and I applaud her strength to not have chosen euthanasia! Thank you soooo much!

That is terrible news about Smokey. Can you keep me in the loop and informed? I have the daughter of a half sister of his, and she is super.

He looks so alive in those pictures, he is one incredible horse and I hope to someday to be blessed enough to have one of his kids, or grandkids, for he is an absolute lover.

 My most fervent prayers are with you both. Ironically, I was thinking about you strongly yesterday and went to your web-site. The pictures of Smokey and his brave look to the camera is indelible in my brain. Your pain touched my heart. I love you and all the Lipizzans but especially Smokey as he has a charisma that is in his spirit. Thank you so much Smokey for the wonderful years you have given me through your Lipizzan legacy. Once touched by a Lipizzan a true horse lover is never the same.....My prayers and energy to you both.

Although I don't think we've met and I've not met Smokey, his trauma touched my heart. I am lucky enough to have purchased a Lippizan--Oliver, aka Bruiser, aka Pluto Con Bria II--a year and a half ago (Smokey's son). He is a very special boy whom I grow more fond of with each day.

I have never met you or Smokey but have my own beloved Lippy's, and one who is about 30. I cannot even think of what we will do when our dear old boy passes on. We are sending forth faith on your family and Smokey's behalf for a full and continued miraculous recovery. We are putting his picture on our frig with "pray for Smokey and Laura today!" MIRACLES DO HAPPEN

Dear Laura, I know the pain you are feeling! As you are well aware I saved Bellamira (Smokey's half sister) from slaughter 4 years ago. She will turn 30 in April and this past winter she was looking real bad. I put her in our front yard and out of the pasture and we began a feeding program. She had lost 200 pounds so we are diligent with her feeding. She has now regained the weight but is a house horse! She has complete free range of our yard that is at least 1 1/2 acres. A couple of times a week I let her out in the pasture to frolic with her buddies. 2500# 10-year old Holstein Steer Maynard, Thunder the Llama and Ebony a quarter/pony which Bella thinks is her daughter! The filly has been with her since day one and Ebony was 6 months old when Bella came to live with us. Bella is my life I am in a wheel chair and on oxygen I sit out there with her, just two old ladies sitting in the sun. I get $856.00 SSA and most of it goes for her feed, Bella comes first! I wish I could help you? Bella’s veterinarian Doctor Spence has me pray for the animals that have a poor prognosis. I do and it seems to work? I will pray for Smokey to continue his recovery and for the funds you need to keep him going. Laura if I had money I would buy a horse from you, because I don’t know how I will handle it when Bella passes. I will pray to God, too help me find funds so that I can buy a horse or even just send you money to help you? (This is the lady we want to send $25 a month to forever, when we are out of this financial crisis -- need to find out her address.)

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MORE UPDATES: Monday, March 26, 2007 9:48 PM

 Hello to everyone who is praying for Smokey and/or sending him good energy:

He is doing really, really well, and so happy to be home with us and his mares and children; however, we had several serious setbacks this weekend.

Saturday night Smokey's left hind lower leg and hoof were completely ice cold and he was having trouble feeling where his feet were.

 Sunday morning, early, we called the vet who had been treating him. While she was on her way, we massaged his rearend and leg several times. Then, later, warmth came back to the skin on the back of his foot. Just before the vets arrived, the warmth even came back to his hoof. Our regular vet (who has a broken hand right now) said that this is not good and that he may have a blood clot. Then, just before the vets from the hospital arrived, warmth came back to his hoof. We walked him out of his stall intohhis backyard, and he was 95% sound and feeling great.

You know how that goes, when you get to the doctor's office, all of your symptom are suddenly gone.

The vets said that a blood clot is extremely rare; however, they prescribed aspirin and an alternative drug to isoxoprene (vasodialater). We gave him those medications.

Smokey was quiet in his backyard and enjoying the sunshine and fresh air. He was not moving around so much as to aggravate the laminitis in his left front foot, so we left him outside of his stall.

Also, we had just reduced his bute from 1.5 to 1 grams twice a day, per doctors' discharge orders.

Then, on Sunday, two young fillies at the other end of our ranch, accidentally got out and were running around as a herd of two. Smokey started prancing, going up on his hind legs into a show off levade for the girls on hard ground, and hollering out to them for at least 10 minutes, while Don caught up the fillies and put them away. Smokey looked sound, gorgeous, and magnificent. He was acting like a ten year old Lipizzan stud.

Then, that Sunday night, we saw Smokey on the monitor in our bedroom, laying down for more than an hour. Don went out to get him up.

Smokey tried, and the fell to the floor really hard but onto soft shavings. I got out of bed, threw on a flew clothes, and ran like crazy out to his stall. Smokey was trying again to get up, but could not. Don and I were trying to sooth him and tell him not to struggle, while we were trying to figure out how to hook up the hoist and temporary sling to help him up (not like the long term sling at the vet hospital).

We talked; we were sick to our stomachs; we were in despair. How could this happen when he was improving quickly and doing so well.

We decided that Smokey would not make another trip on the horse sled and into the ambulance to be slung up in the hospital; that if we could not help him up or if he was unable to stand, we would have to administer medications to sooth him, spend time with him until morning, and then have to make the most difficult decision ever.

The vets prescribed aspirin to thin his blood and a drug similar to Isoxoprene to increase blood flow.

We knew that Smokey did not want to go back to the hospital, even though he loved his vet Nora, who was so kind to him, as well as all the other vets and assistants who gave him so much attention and clapped for him when he got up by himself. They all love him and think he is a stellar, gentleman stallion and an amazing strong spirit. But, he has already told me that he wants to stay at home -- not in the hospital.

Then, Smokey popped up and seemed okay, except that he was unsteady on all four feet; a bit dis-coordinated.

I finally went back to bed at 5 am, and Don stayed with him to make sure he did not lay down. I slept through my alarm and was late for work.

Don called me at work later this morning and said that Smokey didn't look steady on his feet and was lethargic and that both hind legs from the hocks down (including his hooves) were cold. I told Don to start massaging Smokey's rear end and legs, including his behind with his palms and all of his weight -- which he did. Don also called a different reputable vet who is 25 minutes closer to us.

I left work early today to be with Smokey and the vets, mostly in case his situation was hopeless and I had to make a decision.

By the time I got home at 4:00, Smokey was doing well, heat was back in his legs and feet, and he was being ultra -sounded for blood clots. No blood clots found; good circulation.

The vets drew blood to for a full panel test (again) and another test for Equine Herpes Virus (again) and West Nile. .

We increased his bute dose back up to 1.5 grams. Also, the vets put some kind of pads under his front feet, attached with vet wrap and duct tape, because he still has very mild laminitis in his left front foot -- also some white line condition. I am worried that laminitis is brewing in all four feet.

There are so many questions and no answers. Why does he have these setbacks and then rally into total soundness. Why does Smokey exhibit extreme neurological and circulation problems intermittently.

Right now, at almost 9 pm, Monday night, Smokey is doing really good and he likes the pads that the vets wrapped onto his front feet this afternoon. Now he is hungry and extremely alert and gorgeous looking.

The vets did say that at his age, and with all the trauma he went through and all the time he was down, that Smokey will need time to regrow nerves and heal muscle damage. We just have to figure out how to give him enough time.

I'm doing lots of research on the internet on laminitis, endotoxins, neurological disorders, Cushings Disease, diabetes, contaminated well water with nitrogen fertilizers, etc., etc. So if any of you have any ideas, I will pursue them.

Tonight we decided to put Smokey on bottled water and not well water, since our shallow well (90 feet) might be contaminated with nitrogen fertilizers from the adjacent 100 acre farm that drains into the creek near our well.

We have ordered lots of Vitamin E for him. Thinking about ordering other vitamins and holistic medicines to replace phenylbutasone (bute) and to treat possible Cushing's disease (his hair has already shed out, but his neck is, as always, very thick.) Also, I am looking for a source of senior pellets that have less than 14% protein and less carbohydrates, and a little more fat. I might be able to get it specially milled locally. Your input would be appreciated.

We want to do everything possible to help Smokey have enough time to recover without more trauma, grow new nerves, and heal his muscles.

Now the vets are no longer recommending that we put Smokey down (3 different vet clinics) because they know that he has a huge, strong spirit, and if any horse could ever overcome this type of adversity, Smokey has the best chance. They are totally amazed at his resilience and spirit. The vets who came today said that they cannot believe that a horse of this age could be so beautiful and in such good condition -- and with such a powerful spirit and resilience. They seemed to be committed to help solve this mystery of what is truly ailing him.

Well, for Don and me (and many other people who know him), Smokey's resilience and spirit is mutual. He gives us spirit, energy, faith, hope, and resilience in life and to keep on fighting this, and we (all of you and Smokey's vets) return the spirit to him.

During the weekend when he was feeling well, we took pictures of my 6-month old grandson, Mason, who was petting Smokey, sitting on him, and completely delighted with him, as well as Hanna, our 4-mo old Jack Russell Terrier. Smokey just ate up the attention and love. (see pix below)

So, again, I ask for and thank you for your continued prayers, good energy, and I pray that you receive inspiration from Smokey.

Be assured that Smokey is not suffering. Even the vets agreed about that. All the vets from three different veterinary clinics who have treated him are just in love with Smokey. They all say they have never met a Stallion/Lipizzan like him. He steals their hearts.

Smokey is fighting gallantly to come back to his abilities and be able to carefully and safely carry children on his back and teach them about riding, love for horses, and inspire and validate them. I cannot give up on him, even though we are at about $10K in vet bills. I expect him to live another 5 or 6 years comfortably, doing what he is supposed to do for my grandchildren and other people's children, but even if he only lives a few more months and can go easily at home, it's still totally worth it. I won't give up unless Smokey tells me that it is time. I am totally listening to him. Thank goodness that now all of his vets believe in him and his strong spirit and they no longer recommend putting him down, but, rather, are trying to find a way to keep him strong so he can heal.

God bless, Laura

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March 27, 2006

Thank you to those of you who have sent suggestions and ideas last night and today. We are carefully researching and considering all of them.

Even though I am working a lot of intense hours at my job, I managed today, to purchase probiotics for digestion, and we switched Smokey to bottled water, instead of well water. As of today, Smokey is also now taking 4-Life Transfer Factor (which Don and I take); it's an immune system builder. His Vitamin E is on the way.

Smokey's farrier, Marsha Kurtz, gave him several good massages today, which he really loved, and the warmth came back into his hind legs and feet and gave him good balance and soundness.

Tomorrow an equine acupuncturist is coming to work on him, inject Vitamin B, and see if he can identify hot spots in his spine where he could be injected.

All of Smokey's blood tests came back fine today. No diseases or organ problems.

I hope that I am not asking too much for continued prayers and good energy. Smokey (and us) really need your terrific support. Every email means so much to us to just keep our spirits up, to help keep Smokey's spirits up, our faith, and our energy to have basically sleepless nights and be ever vigilant.

Laura

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March 28, 2007

Smokey had an acupuncture treatment today with Vitamin B injections. Several "hot spots"; were identified on his spine and left hip. We circled them with a black marker pen so we can get injections for him. We also started him on probiotics and Transfer Factor. So far, he seems stabilized, but not quite as sure about his feet as he was last weekend.

One of our Lipizzan people recommended that we treat Smokey for EPM, even though he was not tested for it because we don't seem to have it in this local area.

I read up on EMP and discovered that as many as 50% of horses are carrying it and only a small percent actually develop it (usually foals and older horses), and that it take months or years to manifest itself; also, that many horses die from it because it was not recognized and treated early enough. Without delay, we are going to start him on the treatment for it while we wait for tests to come back.

We really appreciate your thoughts and suggestions. All are welcome. The vets are stumped, and even though they know he has a gallant, strong will to live, they really don't know how to further treat him or exactly what is causing the problem.

I just know that I have to give Smokey every chance possible, even if he might be suffering a little and even if he is older and won't live for another ten or twenty years or be a top performance horse anymore.

Smokey has always been so stoic about pain (like most Lipizzans) that he could be suffering and not show it. But, I was thinking that, if our parents put us down whenever we were suffering in life (scraped knees, poison oak, broken bones, teenage heartaches, etc.), none of us would have ever made it to adult hood. Suffering is just part of life on earth. I know that I suffer excruciating pain every day of my life from scoliosis caused by polio and I don't think I am even as sound as Smokey, but no one says to put me down.

Don and I have been doing a lot of thinking about this, and we came to the conclusion that we are committed and that the only way we would put Smokey down would be if he lost his will to live or if his condition was hopeless and he had to live like a cow being raised for veal meat and could never again go out and trot around and roll in the sand. We are prepared to refinance the house and potentially use up our retirement equity to help him get well; no matter how many sleepless nights and no matter how many times a day we need to massage him and tend to his medication, filling his bucket with bottled water, scratching his belling, praising him, and trying to meet his needs.

We surely know that some people, especially non-horse/animal people, would say that we are crazy and not financially prudent. Well, whatever. Everyone has their priorities in life, whether it be a relationship of love and devotion to their children, animals, and friends; or shopping; traveling the world; owning high performance cars, yachts, etc. Right?

So, tonight we are praying and hoping that he will show some improvement tomorrow from the acupuncture treatment. I am also trying to find a competent therapist to do myofascial release therapy for him.

Thank you all for your inspirational and encouraging emails. They are much needed and help give us strength, encouragement, and inspiration . . . as well as validation. Each email message means a great deal to us.

Laura

Again, I need to thank everyone who has sent emails, cards, prayers, donations for Smokey to win his fight for life. He is such a gallant gentleman who gives everyone spiritual energy, faith, hope, and inspiration. I have received numerous emails from people asking me to write a book or story about Smokey’s life. I am going to consider doing that because it is so inspirational and heartfelt. I remember when I first met him after looking at 8 or 10 other stallions. I walked away from my veterinarian and the Tempel Farms vet, because I just was confused, could not make a decision, and nothing was really in my heart. I was there to replace a grand old Lipizzan stallion that I only owned for one month before he fell over backwards with a ruptured aneurysm in his heart. I died just before I arrived for my first lesson on him, and, to this day, I regretted that I took my time for a month allowing us to get to know each other (Pluto Bellornata had only been handled by a man and only understood German - 19 yrs old). Well, that’s a whole story in itself.

Anyway, I just did not connect to any of the beautiful Lipizzan stallions that I saw. So, when I walked away, I saw Smokey. He had just finished being exercised in an indoor track at Tempel Farms. Our eyes met and I was flooded with feelings. I knew, without a doubt that this was the horse, and I knew that Smokey knew he should be with me. I didn’t even look at his body or his legs. He could have only had three legs. I just bought him right then, with no vet check or without seeing him move – on faith in what I felt about him. (That’s another whole story for later.)

Anyway, what I am trying to say is that I never felt like I owned Smokey; that perhaps he owned me; or, most likely, we came into each other’s lives to fulfill a purpose. I have always been more of his caretaker, manager, or whatever; I could never really “own” him. Throughout his life and career, no matter what levels he was training and what shows he was preparing for, I would always let a sensitive person who wanted to learn from “The Professor” get on him and communicate with him. Smokey’s job was really to inspire people, and most of all, me.

I’m writing a lot to get to this point, but, you just have to know that you cannot envision him as a suffering being with no spirit or will to live. Smokey is having ups and downs in his recovery right now, but mostly up.

Smokey loves attention, massages, even his acupuncture. Even though sometimes, periodically, his hind feet go cold and numb, or he feels lethargic for an hour at a time, when we take him out for very short (24 feet) walks in his front or back paddock, he perks up, steps out fine, raises his back, and nickers in a gentlemanly, confident stallion way to all of his herd. He has so much presence and life force energy. It energizes Don and I, even though we were feeling exhausted.

When Don and I go out to massage Smokey and talk to him, we come back to the house with all of our physical and emotional exhaustion gone and dominated by feelings of great spiritual energy. Then, we know for sure, that we are doing the right thing. We know, without a doubt, that Smokey is not unduly suffering and that he has so much spirit and strong will to carry on his life and continue fulfilling his true purpose. The last few weeks have been a journey for us; that is for sure.

You can believe that Don and I both think about and regret all of the days (or weeks in the rainy, cold winters) over the past 24 years for me and almost 8 for Don, that we did not give Smokey enough attention and appreciation. No doubt, some of you have felt that way, from time to time, when you just could not be always “on” for your horse’s more intimate needs. I think we all do. Horses, especially Lipizzans, are so soulful, loyal, and stoic.

Well, now, we cherish every day and every hour with Smokey and pray that he will be sound enough and live enough more years to finish teaching our three grandchildren to ride – and maybe other people’s grandchildren. By ride, I mean learn all of the finest points of riding at the walk (the most difficult gait to practice and learn – right).

We started Smokey on the treatment for EPM today (a financial investment, of course) without waiting a 5 days for his blood tests to come back because, if he has it, we do not want to give it even another day to continue invading his system and damaging him – if he has it. It is donations, prayers, and energy from people all over the country (and internationally), as well as Smokey’s energy, that help us have the courage and faith to continue helping him with his struggle for life – a normal horse life without pain or extreme disability.

Yesterday and today, Smokey seems to be responding to the acupuncture treatment and is totally coordinated almost all of the time since his treatment.

We also started Smokey on 8,000 units of Vitamin E today. Tomorrow, Smokey will have myofascial release physical therapy. (Will take pictures tomorrow.)

Smokey does not like butte; never has, and it is virtually impossible to disguise it in anything or get it down him forcefully in a tube.

The only way we are able to get it into him is to disguise it in Mrs. Pastures horse cookie crumbs, which she so graciously sent a whole bucket to Smokey (with a check). I don’t think she actually sells crumbs – only the cookies.
Mrs. Pastures sent cookie crumbs because she knows Smokey does not have back teeth (she has been here before with her daughter, a Smokey son owner, to visit him).

When we opened the box that arrived with Mrs. Pastures; cookie crumb bucket for Smokey, Don and I just felt like crying – it was so emotional and such a caring thing to do – what a Godsend.
What weighs on me right now is that I have not yet been able to find the time to personally write her and thank her – as well as many of you. All of you, who have been so very supportive, please be patient with me and just know how appreciative we are (and Smokey – he feels your energy and prayers). We are far behind on sleep – listening and watching the monitor all night and getting up during the night to walk Smokey around a few moments and massage him so his legs don’t go numb – mostly Don is doing that because I have to go to my high stress, high focus job everyday.
Actually, I am amazed at Don’s dedication and focus in diligently taking care of Smokey around the clock, 24/7. Without him doing that, I simply could not focus on my job during the day and would just fall apart with stress. And, without your prayers; good thoughts; positive, helpful energy; and supportive emails (and donations), we would be hard pressed to keep up the pace.

For the record, here is what Smokey is receiving now:

Smokey’s Feed & Meds
Senior Pellets (as always, w/ beet pulp)
Pureed Carrots (as always)
J-flex (as always)
Mrs. Pastures Cookie Crumbs
Aspirin (discontinued 4/1/07)
Phenylbutazone
Ulcer medication (as a preventative)
Pentosifyline (vasodilater, similar to Isoxoprene)
4-Life Transfer Factor Plus for Horses (for increased immune response)
Flaxseed (ground)
Rice Bran
Probiotic (for sugar digestion before it goes to the hind gut . . . Cushings syndrom, glucose intolerance, etc.)
Adequan injections every 4 days (for cartiledge and joints)
Marquis (for EPM) (beginning March 30)
Vitamin E powder (beginning March 30)
(previously, while in the hospital: banamine, DMSO, steroids, botulism antitoxin, and equine herpes meds – and who knows what else they gave him)


Other Treatments
Pads taped onto front feet for part of day
Acupuncture w/ Vitamin B
Myofascial Release Physical Therapy


Got to go – it’s 9:15 – need to eat dinner and personally check on Smokey again.

Best !!!

Laura

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April 2, 2007

In 9 days, it will be one month since Smokey was stricken, and he is still getting better and better; however, with intermittent times when his legs start to get cold and he's not sure where is hind feet are. Overall, is progress has been good. He seemed to really benefit from the acupunture treatments with Vitamin B. I'm scheduling another treatment for him this week.

Last Saturday (March 31st), my physical therapist, Anna Lewellen, who does myofascial release therapy, came to work on Smokey. She told me numerous times that she had never worked on horses and really didn't know horse anatomy. She refused to charge me for her work. I told her I was sure that would not matter, because I know from her working on me, that she has very energy sensitive hands and knows right where to work on any living body.

I was right. She put her hands on Smokey and softly said, "Okay Boy," tell me where you hurt. Anna's strong but gentle, sensitive hands found a lot of places on Smokey to work on, especially his left hip. He totally enjoyed it and would periodically make huge sighs or yawn.

Smokey trusted Anna and Anna immediately trusted and liked Smokey. We let Smokey be loose in his stall while Anna worked on his, so he could freely adjust his weight, move if he wanted to, and also be able to communicate to us if he was uncomfortable with anything. When Anna worked on his neck, he liked it at first, and then got a concerned look in his eye. We could not exactly tell what was going on, except that I could tell that Anna was working in a place that Smokey guards even more than his left hind leg that was so horribly injured in the very early '90's. Finally, he lifted his front leg like he does when he is begging for something. We new that he was gently asking Anna to stop working on his neck right now. She did a little more body work on his and then finished (1 hr, 15 min).

After she left, Smokey took a standing nap, so very relaxed. Then, he wanted to go out into his back paddock. We let him out and he hollered at the girls and did his stallion stuff. He was totally sound and looked like a ten year old stallion. Don and I were so excited.

Just before dark, Smokey showed himself off again and even took a few canter steps. He had a good night. However, this morning he was feeling lethargic and looking a little lame. He had not pooped all night and didn't want to eat breakfast. Another set back. I was thinking that maybe we made him feel too good too soon, and he did too much yesterday.

Anyway, the vets came out today and oiled him just as a precaution. They recommended taking him off the aspirin because it is probably irritating his stomach. By afternoon, he was feeling good again, all systems normal, and sound.

So, I just tucked him in tonight at 10:25 (after working a 12-hour day straight through without lunch or dinner).

We will have Anna back to work on Smokey again. I know, without a doubt, that he totally benefited from the myofascial release therapy and that he has a ways to go. Us old folks don't heal up as fast as we did when we were young. We just need to keep giving him every advantage and have patience -- and, of course, keep finding the resources to pay the vet and medication costs.

Your continued prayers and positive energy are still needed.
Laura (pix below)

April 5, 2007 - EPM diagnosed

This afternoon I received a phone call that gave me goosepimples and made my knees weak. Smokey's blood test came back positive, with a very high titer, for EPM. I cannot stop my mind from trying to remember every place he has been over the past 5 or ten years, and . . . whether we ever left his senior pellets exposed to possums. All of our other Lipizzans eat hay, guarded by barn cats. Smokey eats senior pellets in bags stored in a simple shed right next to his house.

When I got home from work tonight, one of Smokey's vets was here examining him. She recommended some stomach medicine to help keep him from getting ulcers from the bute (anti-inflammatory) that he is taking everyday.

The vet confirmed that the Marquis medicine for EPM which we started him on a week ago (thanks to a Lipizzan owner's advice) even before receiving his blood test results, would not begin to show results for two more weeks.

We have since learned that when the protozoa begin to die off two weeks after starting the meds, other scary symptoms could develop that would make a person think the horse was having a relapse. We have done a lot of research on EPM and determined that it is not contagious from one horse to another; that sometimes the 28-day therapy needs to be a 2 to 4 month therapy (at $800 to $100 per month); and that Smokey will need gradual hand walking and exercise (such as walking over poles on the ground) to be sure that his muscles and nerves are regenerating and that he is not permanently brain damaged by the EPM parasite.

I (and the vets) believe that he has not been brain damaged because he has not exhibited the symptoms (head pressing, head tilt, seizures, behavioral/personality changes). So, that is very good, and makes us know that we made the right decision to put him on the meds for EPM without waiting for the test, because every hour and every day counts in the progression of the disease. Sometimes the disease (parasitic invasion of cerebral spinal fluid) progresses slowly (even over years), and sometimes it progresses rapidly. Apparently a lot of the progression and even "immunity" after ingestion of the parasite, depends upon the horses age (very young or very old), the horse's stress levels, injuries, and overall immune system.

With regard to Smokey's immune system, last week we put Smokey on 4-Life Transfer Factor for equines (we actually take the people version ourselves and sell it to people who want to try it to boost the immune system), and we put him on Vitamin E (8000 units per day), and probiotics for the digestive system.

If any of you know of other immune system boosters, we want to hear about it. What we have learned from reading, reading, every day about EPM, is that at least 50% of the horse population has been exposed to it and only 1% actually develop symptoms due to invading protozoa parasites; that the horse's immune system has to be very strong and not compromised.

We also learned that EPM is the best masquarader (sp?) and can creep in slowly and not be diagnosed for along period of time, because it can exhibit itself with periodic symptoms, such as toe dragging, stumbling, occasional difficulty getting up, trouble backing up, problems going in a tight circle, periodic lethargy, and symptoms similar to old age arthritis. I'm not sure why more vets don't recommend EPM testing -- except that maybe other causes can be overlooked if the EPM blood test shows positive and spinal taps are expensive and risky unless you have a very, very experienced vet doing the tap.

Well, all of Smokey's vets from three different clinics are amazed by him and they all agree that he is making a remarkable and rapid recovery and that he has a very strong will to live and be whole -- and that he is a total gentleman, professor, and charges one's hopes and spirits just by virtue of being around him, and, especially touching him.

So, that is very encouraging, that professionals are now feeling the same way about Smokey that we did almost a month ago when they all advised putting him down right there in his stall.

Again, we want to sincerely and humbly thank all of you for your prayers and positive energy for Smokey, your donations ($2700 so far) to help us have the resources to pay for whatever treatment Smokey needs to get well (almost $11,000 now), and for your personal words of encouragement.

Sometimes, I cannot sleep at night because I feel so remiss in not responding to each email personally. I will, and I have to trust that you know and understand that we have been under so much stress, duress, and time constraints, that it has not yet been possible. God bless.

Laura
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April 8, 2007

I'm still working on distilling olive tree leaves to produce extract containing oleuropein, which is proven to treat bacteria, viruses, fungus, and most importantly, protozoa parasites (even Malaria). Yesterday we managed to get some olive leaf tea from the distillation process, which we put on Smokey's food. Also, he likes eating the leaves. Cannot give him too many, though, because he has no back teeth.

The extract can be bought commercially for people, but that makes it pretty expensive for a horse. So, we're trying again today to obtain oil extract from the leaves. The leaves are very tough and resillient, so this time we mashed them and put them in the food processor first. Hope it works.

We are also giving Smokey probiotics, lots of Vitamin E, and Transfer Factor Plus, as well as freshly ground wheat germ. In addition, we are putting extra virgin (cold pressed)olive oil, which contains oleuropein,in a small amount of food for him when he takes the Marquis.

We are dosing him with the Marquis for a 2,000 pound horse. The vet used a tape and said he weighs about 1250, but I know he weighs more (probably 1350) and tapes are not accurate. When Smokey was young and very fit (like Arnold S), I actually weighed him and he weighed 1450. He was all muscle then. Anyway, basically we are dosing him almost 1-1/2 times. That means we will run out of the Marquis soon. We plan to put him on a second round of it.

The vet hospital charged us $1,200 for four syringes of Marquis (28 days), and now I see we can buy it from DrsFosterSmith.com, Allivet.com, and another site for $650 to $700. I just faxed the vet hospital a letter to see if they will refund $500 to us. Our credit cards are maxed out and we are over $11,000 in costs so far (that includes Smokey's horse ambulance ride and 2 days in a very high tech sling in an intensive care unit.

We are totally appreciative of the generous donations we received, which, so far total $2,300. That makes a good dent in the cost and helped us to buy the electric hoist (in case we need it), the tv/monitor equipment, and the Marquis, as well as Adequan injections (non-steriodal anti-inflammatory). Donations have ranged from $15 to $500, and they are all appreciated equally, and we know those people could have spent the money on other things. I'm just beginning to get "caught up" and write personal notes to those incredible people. We also received lots of cards for Smokey with very encouraging messages. Our horse community, and especially Lipizzan people, are the best !!!!

Smokey's EPM blood test came back with a very high titer. I need to find out how high, because the vet said she has never seen one that high. I hope it means he is mounting a huge antibody response and not that he has a huge overload of the protozoa.

We know the spinal tap is considered the most reliable test, but I don't think we are going to put him through that for several reasons. One is that we already know from x-rays that he has arthritic spurs in his neck, hocks, and pasturn joints -- so, most likely in his back, too. I think that means inserting a needle into his spine might be problematic. Also, I am worried that he might actually fall down because of the tranquilizer required for the spinal tap procedure.

The other reason is that, after reading seven vet university studies comparing positive blood tests for EPM and EPM symptoms, the post-mortum spinal taps showed 89% of the blood tests were, in fact, accurate. Also, a good spinal tap for EPM purposes his very difficult to get because if there is a molecule of blood in it, the sample is contanimated and gives false positive results. reliable.

Studies show no adverse side affects to taking Marquis (other than to the owner's bank balance), so, in light of the fact that Smokey has the symptoms and a high blood titer for EPM, we're going to bet on the 89% odds and not do the spinal tap.

Any ideas about this are most welcome.

Laura
P.S. Below, a picture of our distiller (originally purchased to distill basil, rosemary, and lavendar)in the experimental process of distilling olive tree leaves.
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Another post - April 8, 2007

We did not really extract oil from our olive leave distillation, but we did extract some very powerful (bitter, but good) tea that Don and I both sampled several times. We could feel it going right into our cells. Very powerful stuff. We gave Smokey just about a 1/4 cup. He loved it. Then we gave him a handful of the olive leaves that were steamed, and he loved those, too -- even though they are very bitter. He must know that it is good for his body and what he really needs right now. Amazing.

I know, without a doubt that it will help him. I have done at least 20 hours of research on the properties of olive leaves and read many references to God/Our Creator/The Devine Energy Force trying to show to mankind the benefits of the olive tree, such as when the dove brought an olive branch to Noah on the ark, after the flood. I believe it is truly the best medicine for mankind, if cared for, and handled properly.

Okay, well enough "preaching." I have to confess that tonight I could not help myself. I had to get on Smokey. Horse people who ride know that the only true way to assess their horse is to be on his/her back. That is when you "super communicate" and know exactly how your horse is feeling. So, I just did it, in his stall. I am so very extatic (sp?) to report that Smokey feels very solid under me, totally "on the aides" with just a halter and leadrope, ready to respond, no problem backing up, or circling. He felt so, so good. Most of the time (5 minutes) that I was on his back, I was just massaging and stroking his neck. I am so excited now because I felt his energy and spirit, and I know that, if given the right opportunities, he will get well. He will live at least another 5 or 6 years and teach my grandchildren to ride and have a special affinity and love for horses.

I might even be able to ride him, too -- just working at the walk. So much can be done at the walk. I could write a half book about that. I remember riding Smokey in total darkness on a trail that is down in the bottom of a creekbed behind our property, and having to totally trust him to see the way. Those times were really incredible experiences. I had contact with his mouth, of course, but he had contact with me, telling me which way we needed to go. It was just about trust and getting through something together, without me using my left brain.

Okay, I'm writing too much. Got to go. I'm super tired, but also exhilerated from being on Smokey's back. He has such incredible, powerful, and validating energy.

Those of you who know him or visited and ridden him, know what I'm talking about. Smokey is not the most perfect horse, confirmation wise, a little butt high, a little straight in the hocks, never has tracked up at the walk (but scored 8's and 9's on his canter pirouttes), and 10 on temperament and reliability/soundness. And, also a 9.8 on producing offspring, purebred or partbred.

However, Smokey was not only was a champion competitor against the "big boys" with Olympic quality riders, owned by people with lots of status and the money to buy the best resources, he has been and still is just an incredible spiritual horse with so much postive energy and validation to give to all who need it, and espcially for me.

Several people who have known Smokey and me over the past 10-24 years, have written to me that they observe that Smokey and and I have a synergestic (sp?) energy and that we vitalize and teach each other. I think that is true. Smokey has been my spiritual and practical teacher in life and has had a major influence to help me reflect upon my values. I have always treated him consistently and with respect, kindness, firmness (when he was young), and, even, adoration. I'm really not a very good dressage rider, but Smokey always validates me and teaches me and makes me feel like I could ride in the Spanish Riding School without embarrassment.

Now, for sure, I am writing too much. Thanks for listening. I'm pasting in a picture of us tonight in his stall. I hope it means as much to you as it does to me, in terms of the relationship between horse and rider, as well as Smokey's future. I believe this EPM thing (or whatever it truly is) is just a journey that Smokey and I (and everyone who loves him, including my husband Don and my grandchildren,) must travel through, for whatever reason.

Again, thank you for your support, prayers, good thoughts, cards, emails, and donations.

laura

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April 11, 2007

I have to post something kind of funny and unexplainable here.

Last night Don hooked up an old-fashioned boom box (the one I used to create Smokey's freestyle in 1989) in Smokey’s stall and played classical, Spanish, and Hawaiian music form him - because he knows that Smokey likes music and likes riding musical freestyles.

Smokey intently watched what Don did when he operated the boom box, probably out of bordom. He loved the classical music and hung out next to the boom box to listen. Then, Don changed it to Hawaiian music, as Smokey intently watched up close. He seemed to like it. Unfortunately, we had to listen to it all night in our bedroom because of the monitor.

It was kind of funny last night, because I got on top of Smokey in his stall while the Hawaiian music was playing, and we circled around twice and I asked for two steps of “rein back” with my seat (no bit, no reins, just lead rope on his halter). Smokey felt very coordinated and seemed to like it.

Then I dismounted and patted him and said, Smokey, maybe some day we will do a hula ride to Hawaiian music. He immediately snorted as if to say, You have got to be kidding. Don and I laughed out loud.

Then tonight, Don changed the station to Pop music.

Don did not know that Smokey does not like pop, rock & roll, or country/western. He only likes classical and Spanish music. I’m not yet sure about Hawaiian music yet.

Smokey was intently watching Don change the radio station. When Don finished and had Pop music playing, Smokey got closer and pressed the buttons with his nose several times and until the radio was playing a classical music station (strings in A minor. Don changed it back to the same station, and Smokey again changed the station to classical music.

It was just so funny, yet unexplainable.

Smokey definitely has his preferences, and over the past 24 years I have learned to appreciate them, just as he has learned to appreciate mine and accommodate my crooked, twisted spine and uneven seat – ever so forgiving even in FEI level movements.

Well, for whatever it is, this story I had to share and I cannot offer a rational explanation, except for my intuitive instinct that Smokey has truly learned to understand various types of communication from humans over his past 30+ years of being very intimate with the human nature and methods of communication. He reminds me of the childhood horse we knew on TV, Mr. Ed – not to demean Smokey, but I swear he is almost like that. Crazy, huh?

What a guy.

Laura

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April 17, 2007

Smokey is getting better and better each day; however, he continues to have “ouch” problems on the front feet, but does not appear to really have laminitis. He will have another set of x-rays on Thursday to confirm that there is no laminitis. Still, it hurts me to see him walking sore on the front feet. And, it keeps us from letting him have very mild exercise outside of his stall to combat boredom and possible muscle atrophy while his body is healing from EPM. It was coming and going before, but now it’s pretty consistent. At first I thought it was the “die off” of the EPM protozoa, but, now I’m not so sure.

The voice of William (Bill) Burnett, DVM, deceased November 1999, keeps coming into my head. He was Smokey’s vet for many years and brought him back to soundness after Smokey’s horrific accident in 1991. Ten or more years ago, Doc said to me that when he dies, he hopes he comes back as my horse. (I think he told all the ladies that.) When I told Doc that I planned to be riding Smokey when he was 35 years old, he said, well then, Wiener, you need to keep pads on his front feet. I asked why. Doc said because just plain old everyday concussion wears out a horse’s joints/feet by the time they are in their 30's.

So, I did what Doctor Burnett recommended. Then, at the beginning of last winter, we took Smokey’s pads off because we decided he really did not need them in the winter months when we don’t ride him much. Then, ten days before he went down, we had removed all of his shoes.

Now I’m thinking that, since Smokey has been so compromised by the whole trauma and this EPM thing, that he needs his front shoes and pads back on.

While I’m talking about this, and Doc’s voice that keeps coming back into my head, I have to tell you that he was the most amazing lameness veterinarian. His father was a race track veterinarian in Colorado and Doc grew up following his father around and assimilating everything about horses, their movement, and soundness. Then he went to vet school in Colorado and became a race track vet himself for many years.

When he moved to this area to take on the role of an equine vet for people who ride dressage, western, or have horses for pets, some people didn’t like him at all. Why? Because, even though he was an outstanding leg surgeon, he always had a cigarette hanging out of his mouth while he did surgery. One eye would be squinted to keep the rising smoke from getting into his eye.

When Doc Burnett came into people’s barns and worked on horses, he always had that cigarette hanging out of his mouth. If the horse would act up for some reason and try to strike or rear, he would call it a pig head (even if the horse was the dear, spoiled pet of some nice lady).

Lots of people loved Dr. Burnett, his sense of humor, his ability to know horses, and his veterinary skill and ability to get a horse sound. He had a successful practice and never took advantage of anyone. When the people who did not like him had horses who were still lame after all known remedies were exhausted, guess who they brought their horse to? Doc Burnett. He could always get them sound. Sometimes he had to explain to the owner that the soundness may be temporary because there is a very serious problem (such as extreme side bones or navicular) – but the horses he treated always trotted out sound.

Doc finally quit smoking at age 48 or 50 and appeared to be in great shape. However, he suddenly dropped dead on the floor of his hospital (about an hour after treating my very badly injured shoulder that could not be repaired by conventional people medicine and even intra-articular steroid injections – he used some new, $150K machine for laser therapy).

Yes, he also occasionally treated people, the owners of his client horses. My husband says he was sort of like Dr. House on the television show.

Well, anyway, I think I’m going to rely upon Dr. Burnett’s advice ten or twelve years ago and put the shoes and pads back on Smokey.

Smokey gets another EPM test on Thursday as well. His previous test 3 weeks ago showed a blood titer of 1.67 for EPM (ELISA test).

Laura
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April 21, 2007 - LAMINITIS PROBLEMS
With laminitis (rats eating in the basement), I can't help remembering Barbaros now, because it is such a devastating condition that is second only to colic as a cause of horse death. By the time the symptoms show up, the damage has already occured and it is hard to get under control.

For the past 5 weeks, our focus has been on treating Smokey's EPM disease and symptoms, but the "mild" laminitis he had when he left the hospital is still lingering. We had new x-rays done yesterday, and they show a little rotation in the left front foot.

Smokey is in super deep shavings, however, several times a day we hand walk him in his back paddock to keep his muscles from getting weak and to stimulate his nervous system; he loves it; however, it is not what we should do for the laminitis.

Now, after reading the latest research on laminitis, we realize that giving him the vasodialator drug (similar to Isoxoprine) to improve circulation, is exactly the opposite of what one should do to treat laminitis. Also, giving bute is not good for laminitis, because bute is a pain killer that allows the horse to walk around even more and, thus, add more stress to the laminae (sp?) of the hoof. The horse should be in pain so that it spends more time laying down and having the hooves at heart level. All this time, we have been concerned about Smokey laying down because of the EPM paralysis that he experienced before.

In addition, high doses of steroids greatly exacerbate laminitis. Smokey had very high doses of steroids for the first 4 days of his hospitalization to treat swelling in the spinal cord due to the EPM. He also had neck injections with steroids and hylarten (sp? hyularten??) for arthritic spurs.

Also, we had Smokey slightly trimmed several days ago(not by his usual farrier) because I freaked out that his soles looked like they were making total ground contact and I wanted to give him a more concave shape in the sole. Now, we realize, that was WRONG, WRONG, to take anything off the sole of a horse that has laminitis. Instead, he should have had the front inch (approximately) of his toe completely rockered, in order to put more weight on the frog.

Hindsight is always better, huh? Well, at least Smokey has not been taking the vasodialator drug for at least a week. He has been taking 2 grams of butte every day. Tommorrow he gets one gram, and, after that, none.

Marsha Curts, Smokey's farrier, said she cannot rocker his toe now because she cannot take off any more sole. She is going to modify some aluminum shoes to have a rocker and custom fit a plastic (or similar material) pad with frog support. She will only tape it on Smokey with vetwrap to make sure that he tolerates the frog support and that it helps him.

Most of us with Lipizzan horses never have to educate ourselves and worry about laminitis because Lipizzans have the "blessed" feet. However, there are things that can trigger lamininitis (such as retained placenta in a mare, getting into the grain barrel, running loose on pavement, etc., etc.). Laminitis is such a profoundly serious, life threatening condition, that now I realize every horse owner should research it until they are an expert on laminitis, so as not to make mistakes when it first presents itself (like we have done).

All we can do now is administer "educated" treatments and interventions and pray that Smokey's Lipizzan sturdiness will preclude any further rotation and progression of the laminitis condition.

There are many websites on laminitis. I would like to share this one with all of you:

Laminitis Article at thehorse.com
You may have to signup/register to view the article. It is free.

I am also attaching an MS Word doc that has the article pasted in (at the end), as well as other information on laminitis.
Laminitis Interventions - a collection of information

Laura


Smokey Update - May 11, 2007

It has been almost two months since Smokey was down in his stall all night getting progressively worse. He had increased paralysis, was bloating up, no gut sounds, going ataxic, eyeballs rolling up, and tongue hanging out.

Thanks to the docs, meds, prayers, and donations, Smokey’s EPM appears to be under control. He is taking his second round of Marquis, as well as a muriad of vitamins, minerals, and holistic type medicines.

Smokey is very coordinated and perky mentally, but still battling laminitis. He is also pretty bored from just being in his stall every day. He had a third set of x-rays today and, thank God, no further rotation in the right front hoof – and, most important, no sinking of the coffin bone.

“Smokes” and now aka “MySun” has been wearing frog support pads, cut to specifications for his foot, as well as aluminum shoes ground down to make a rocker toe. The left toe was debrided to relieve a gas pocket in the laminae. He is on about one foot of shavings and not being hand walked outside. One gram of bute every day. Probiotics for hind gut sugars.

The vets say that his he is very sore, but doing well, not limping, and his laminitis is not grave at this time. So, lots more prayers are needed so he beats this laminitis thing really fast.

My granddaughters and little 8 month-old grandson are coming on Mother’s Day. The girls (ages 3 and 6) want to sit on Smokey’s back and brush his mane. I’m sure Smokey will be very flattered with their attention.

Smokey’s treatment and diagnostic costs are way over $14,000 now, and we are thinking of getting him tested for Cushings Disease (which can cause chronic laminitis and take down the immune system). I may save the money for the test and use it to treat him for Cushings instead. The thing that makes me suspect some level of Cushings is that this spring, he is not shedding out like normal. His coat isn’t long, but it’s hanging on to him and the dock of his tail is curly.

I will keep you posted.

Laura

P.S. He still turns the radio dial to Spanish or Hawaiian music.


May 16, 2007 Update

I was so looking forward to Mother's Day because my 3 little grandchildren were coming to visit and the two granddaughters (Jessica 6 yrs old now & McKenna just 3 yrs old) were going to sit on Smokey in his stall and brush his mane. I was so sure that he would just love their attention, because he loves them so much (as he does all children) and loves to give them rides.

Well, we put Jessica on Smokey and he did like it a lot, but then he got agitated and started figetting (sp?) and looking out the stall door to the arena. Then he raised his left (laminitis) hoof in his usual begging stance that he does when he really, really wants something desperately. He was not totally quiet, very agigitated, and even nudged me quite hard on the shoulder (something he almost never does because he has ultimate stallion manners).

Then I realized that my vision of how he would feel when the granddaughters were on his back brushing him, was not the same has how he actually felt. Smokey has never had the granddaughters in his stall with him. He has only known them in terms of carrying them around the arena for a ride, and taking care of them. Smokey was sure that when Jessica was on his back, it meant that he was going out to the arena to give them a ride. Poor Smokey was so frustrated.

Then, finally, Don (my husband) realized that what I had been requesting for the past 7 weeks was very important to Smokey. My request was that we put super deep shavings into his "backyard" (paddock behind his stall) so that he could go out on a super cushioned floor (about $200 worth of shavings). So, today, Don divided Smokey's backyard in half with a fence, went to the store and bought ten bales of shavings, and bedded the area down.

While Don was working on the divider fence, hanging the rubber mats to keep the shavings from traveling out, Don said he noticed that Smokey was very excited; that Smokey knew what Don was doing and was in complete anticipation.

This evening, Smokey went out into his "backyard" to regain his dominance and place over the herd of mares and take in a little late evening sunlight. He totally loved it. I know, for sure, this will help him get over his EPM and laminitis, because spirit has so much to do with the healing chemicals the brain releases into the body. It is so important that the horse (and people, too) not be depressed and give up hope.

I'm pasting in two pix of Smokey's backyard/paddock accommodations. Even though we are just about at the end of financial resources, the money we spent on shavings for Smokey's freedom is well worth it, and will probably help him almost as much as his medications.

Best to you . . .those who are following Smokey's journey.